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Jul. 30th, 2006 11:34 pmMy weekend has been crammed full of stuff, and I'm exhausted. I want another one.
10 year reunions are weird. I went, fulfilling a 10 year pact with an old friend. That was by far the most satisfying part. Otherwise... well... everyone just felt awkward, and I really didn't feel like I cared about many of those people, because I was never close friends with any of them at the time. I had to go to the CON volunteer party just to decompress and be in the same space with people who know me now.
I keep thinking that nothing in certain arenas in my life will surprise me anymore, and then the universe comes and tips itself kinda sideways again. Keeps me humble, I guess. Or maybe just reinforces the feeling that hiding in my house all summer has been the right idea all along somehow. Dunno. My sociability seems to be returning, but then I hang out and still feel out of synch with everything and everyone I felt I was close too. It's weird. If my life allowed for it now, I feel like it might be a good idea to travel alone for a while or something. Who knows, maybe that would just make it worse. So, instead, I'll keep trying to carve out time to work on music and keep tending to my little life in my corner of St. Paul, and keep an eye out for when the ride comes to a complete stop, or becomes slow enough to bail. Actually, neither of those... I guess I'd just like the ride to feel more familiar and fun again.
I need to go to sleep.
Got some work done on the new track today.
10 year reunions are weird. I went, fulfilling a 10 year pact with an old friend. That was by far the most satisfying part. Otherwise... well... everyone just felt awkward, and I really didn't feel like I cared about many of those people, because I was never close friends with any of them at the time. I had to go to the CON volunteer party just to decompress and be in the same space with people who know me now.
I keep thinking that nothing in certain arenas in my life will surprise me anymore, and then the universe comes and tips itself kinda sideways again. Keeps me humble, I guess. Or maybe just reinforces the feeling that hiding in my house all summer has been the right idea all along somehow. Dunno. My sociability seems to be returning, but then I hang out and still feel out of synch with everything and everyone I felt I was close too. It's weird. If my life allowed for it now, I feel like it might be a good idea to travel alone for a while or something. Who knows, maybe that would just make it worse. So, instead, I'll keep trying to carve out time to work on music and keep tending to my little life in my corner of St. Paul, and keep an eye out for when the ride comes to a complete stop, or becomes slow enough to bail. Actually, neither of those... I guess I'd just like the ride to feel more familiar and fun again.
I need to go to sleep.
Got some work done on the new track today.
