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Resolve?
Had a lot of thoughts swirling around when I woke up this morning. I've been thinking a lot about what I want to do. I decided that new years resolutions are a lot like to-do lists- they just have more of a vast scope to them. It's easier for me to have one-off resolutions, the kind that I can say "Check. I did that. Onward." It's harder to have things that I want to do that effect a change over a period of time- like: "practice music more often", or "get up earlier", or "cook at home more often". (All things I'd like to do.)
Actually- I don't necessarily *want* to get up earlier, but I want to make more time for myself in the morning. When I lived in Minneapolis, I used to get up early, go to the Spyhouse, get a cup of coffee and sit and journal for a half hour before going to work. I did that most every day for at least a month or two. It was a nice ritual. I got there at 8 and left at 8:30 and got to work by 9. When I moved to St. Paul and my commute became blessedly truncated, I stopped. I stay in *bed* until 8:30, some mornings. So it's not that I can't, it's that I don't. Why not?
A confluence of reasons. I generally don't get enough sleep. I like to stay up late. I like to actually hang out with S4 once he's done with work. But sometimes he doesn't get home until after 10, and then he likes to chill out and play Warcraft and by the time he's done killing things it's after 12:30 and I need to sleep. He works later, so he stays in bed later. We have a loft, most of our living space is one big room- so I can't really "get up" as much as I want to without feeling like I'm being inconsiderate. I slink around, I try to stay quiet, I don't turn lights on unnecessarily. I get dressed in the dark. I'm only really becoming conscious of the fact that I do these things, and that, in a perfect world or living space, I wouldn't necessarily choose to.
Anyway. Just thinking out loud about that, sorta.
So, I guess a complementary resolution would be one to get to bed earlier. Except that I don't really want to go to bed earlier, I'd just like to feel more rested.
I want to get more music promo stuff done- cd, website, press-pack-y type stuff so I can...
Play more gigs
I want to throw away or sell things I don't need or use anymore
I want to fix or replace my sewing machine
I want to clean out the oubliette
I want to make art or perform at Burning Man
Try making lanterns again
Also trying to figure out if I'm going to stay in derby or not. I like playing, I love my team and my team loves me, but.. it's a lot of time. I want to do music more than I want to play derby- and I'm not sure how much skating keeps me from music or if that's just a convenient excuse.
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