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spacebugI think I just said "No" to doing a classical saxophone recital in the spring.
I think it was the right thing to say, all things considered; there was a communication gap that has just been closed.
Priorities are weird. I'm not really sure what mine are all the time.
I really hate passing up opportunities, though, even when I know it's for the best. But I know I want to work on the score or my own music a lot more than I want to take the time to learn someone else's right now, and it wouldn't be fair to take on a project when my heart's not in it enough. I'd just to a half-assed job and resent the time I'd rather be spending doing other things. On the other hand, it could just be the fear of returning to the classical world. I don't think that's it, though.
I always seem to be busy, but I still always have nagging feelings that I'm not doing enough, that I'm not working enough on the things that I say are important to me, or spending time with the people I want to spend time with. Always a balancing act...
My Thanksgiving weekend was pretty good. It seems pretty lame, but I think I most enjoyed hanging out by myself for most of Friday, cleaning the house.
But... it looks nice. Artwork is hung up, and not sitting in a pile in the living room. We put up another set of shelves in the kitchen, bought dishes and glasses that match, replaced the crap shelves in the living room with a nicer one. Pretty small, inexpensive things, but it does a lot to make it feel more finished. Still want another wardrobe or two; I'm guessing I'll get Ikea gift certificates for birthmas that should help.
These things are related, even if they don't seem to be. I get more done when my working spaces are defined, and clean, and I can find stuff, and don't procrastinate what I should be working on by doing the dishes or something instead.
Shit. I'm becoming my Mom.
I think it was the right thing to say, all things considered; there was a communication gap that has just been closed.
Priorities are weird. I'm not really sure what mine are all the time.
I really hate passing up opportunities, though, even when I know it's for the best. But I know I want to work on the score or my own music a lot more than I want to take the time to learn someone else's right now, and it wouldn't be fair to take on a project when my heart's not in it enough. I'd just to a half-assed job and resent the time I'd rather be spending doing other things. On the other hand, it could just be the fear of returning to the classical world. I don't think that's it, though.
I always seem to be busy, but I still always have nagging feelings that I'm not doing enough, that I'm not working enough on the things that I say are important to me, or spending time with the people I want to spend time with. Always a balancing act...
My Thanksgiving weekend was pretty good. It seems pretty lame, but I think I most enjoyed hanging out by myself for most of Friday, cleaning the house.
But... it looks nice. Artwork is hung up, and not sitting in a pile in the living room. We put up another set of shelves in the kitchen, bought dishes and glasses that match, replaced the crap shelves in the living room with a nicer one. Pretty small, inexpensive things, but it does a lot to make it feel more finished. Still want another wardrobe or two; I'm guessing I'll get Ikea gift certificates for birthmas that should help.
These things are related, even if they don't seem to be. I get more done when my working spaces are defined, and clean, and I can find stuff, and don't procrastinate what I should be working on by doing the dishes or something instead.
Shit. I'm becoming my Mom.
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Date: 2006-11-27 06:14 pm (UTC)miss you. *hugs*
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Date: 2006-11-27 09:24 pm (UTC)i think the organizational bug is a symptom of owning a place to live. you now have the chance to do all the stuff you said you would do when you were renting, if you owned the place.
also, its much easier for me to do stuff i WANT to do when all the stuff i NEED to do is either done or scheduled. so i know how you feel.